I've considered starting a blog for quite some time. Well, by quite some time, I guess that really just means a year. But the thought of it kind of stressed me out. Would I really be able to keep up with a blog every day? Would anyone care what I had to say? What would it look like? What format would I use? Fonts? Colors? So many things to consider. Things that don't matter. I realize that this will be the first and last time some of you read this, and that's OK. My hope is that through this blog I can inspire people. But inspire people with what? Well. Hope. Love. Determination. Because of our precious Reece, I have found him to be my greatest inspiration. As his mommy and he as my hero, I want to do what he is doing for so many people. Inspire.
Believe me. There are days when I feel defeated. Sad. Angry. Bitter. But I want to use this as a platform to find the good in it all. So many of you have told me what an inspiration I am to you. I'm so thankful for your kind words, but I will be the first to tell you, it's very hard for me to be positive every day. I am human and I get extremely angry with God and with the world around me. You know, I'm writing this just a day after the bombings in Boston. While we are trying to keep our precious son alive and give him a hopeful future, there are people out there who so easily want to take life away from us. Shame on you. Shame on you, you selfish cowards. My continued prayers for all those who suffered a loss.
I recently started reading "Jesus Calling: Enjoying Peace In His Presence." Well, not really reading. It's a 365-day devotional. At a time when I need Him most, I found this. And it has given me much comfort. Ironically, today's devotional says this: "But you don't know what I know or see what I see. If I pulled back the curtain to allow you to view heavenly realms, you would understand much more. However, I have designed you to live by faith, not by sight. I lovingly shield you from knowing the future or seeing into the spirit world. Acknowledge My sovereignty by giving thanks in all circumstances."
I give thanks every day. I give thanks to the Lord for Reece. Every night before I go to bed, I pray over him. I, of course, pray for healing, but I also give thanks to the Lord for giving us Reece. For giving us the chance to love someone other than ourselves so unconditionally. I hope that you all can see the good around you, even in your most darkest hours.
My life has been forever changed because of our precious Reece. I hope you will continue to follow our story and I hope you will continue to be inspired.